Love You Forever

How can the days get longer? How can the heart grow weaker? How can the missing grow greater? Don't they say, "Time heals"? But then, they also say, "Absence makes the heart grow fonder".

We could really use a good dose of our mama right now. Many issues are weighing heavy on my heart and mind and I am just sure things would look a whole lot better and brighter if she were here. 6 years ago she left us....I can not even believe I am saying that. I didn't think I could make it one day, but here I am 2,190 days later, still plugging away, putting one foot in front of the other, tripping quite a bit, but still here, going on without her.

Babies have been born without her, weddings have gone on without her, friends have moved and changed without her, medical tests and procedures have been done without her, seasons have come and gone, grandkids have graduated without her, tears have been shed, laughter has followed without her, but somehow....life has been forever changed. Mom, if you can hear us, if you can see us, if you can pray for us, please do. Funny how it is that you are gone, but as close to me as my very breath....

Marissa painted this for me. She printed words around the pansies:

I thought of you with love today, but that is nothing new. I thought of you yesterday and the day before that too. I think of you in silence. I often speak your name. All I have left are memories and a picture in a frame. Your memory is my keepsake with which I'll never part. God has you in His keeping. I have you in my heart.

"Love You Forever."

I do, you know.